Futures and Deaths

 

Seesaw swinging

Tipping its tail–

Minutes to Futures to Deaths.

 

I can’t live in this moment,

An island in a vast sea,

Alone.

 

I’m forever taking out my telescope,

Worn-out,

Abandoned,

Hazy views.

 

I take these minutes try to stack them,

Like building blocks,

Desperate to carve out

Something new.

 

A lasting relationship,

A novelty:

Anxiously dreamt,

Warily pursued.

 

 

Last Night

 

Last night I dusted off

Old bins

Collections of my past

Went through the years.

 

Youth wasted on the

Young but knowledge

Still can’t change it.

 

Even now I feel old,

Worn-down

Exhausted.

 

I see myself,

Smiling shyly in photos,

Masculine arms draped

Around my neck,

My waist,

Holding on.

 

Only to let go

In some near future.