Traps

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Snagged by a trap–

Slowly sinking

Never knowing

DROWNING

Til I hit.

 

Now daily inhalations

Instant cravings

upon rising

and returning,

Time upon Time.

 

I rejected the label,

Believed in a whim

I was able

to shed trappings

of addictions

vaguely lingering

like fog

after the rain

but now I’m Drenched.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Panic Ignited

 

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Cigarette:

the Devil luring me in.

Fighting denial,

Fuelling Anxiety,

Panic ignited–

No escape.

Cyclone

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Both legs shake uncontrollably,

Anxiety,

Comes over me,

Little rapid beats,

Fast-paced breaths,

A sense of urgency

Not rooted or anchored,

Just pervasive.

A thousand screaming voices,

Resounding in my mind,

Echoing, Demanding, Despairing.

Harsh whispers disable me,

Worry me,

Remind me of the misery,

Future days may hold.

I cling to you for solace,

Your promise of relief

All too alluring.

A puff or two will calm my nerves,

Will put my mind at ease:

Momentarily.

Temporarily.

Until Nicotine adds fuel to fires raging–

A cyclone I struggle to be free of.