Control

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Too many thoughts to control,

to battle, disprove, keep in

Line.

 

Pointed self-hatred,

Depression,

a cycle

Ensnared me.

 

Tears flow before you,

Hopelessly drowning in

weakness and shame.

 

A lifelong battle

winning or losing

never ends.

 

 

Tyrant

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My tyrant you’ve been silenced,

Maybe I got used to the pain,

Found my own perverse pleasure

In subjugation,

In your vain

Attempts to reign

To wield unearned powers

Over me.

You hold steadfast to ideals,

Your notions of justice,

A looking glass only your eyes

Can peer through.

Well now I’ve cut you out

And it feels strange

To feel the warmth of those who care,

Who know how to be there

Without trying to own,

Or weaken, or contain.

 

Tornadoes

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Some days feel like
Tornadoes,
Wind-storms blowing
Apart the pieces of my
Life
Fruitlessly I flail,
Reach out,
Try to grab,
Pin down,
Arrange them–
Seeking peace.